BLESSING 2012

happy new year!
xoxo

ps: i wish 2012 will bring alot of joy to me
love, life, dan laugh.
:)

I AM HERE

does anybody thinking of me?
i am here.

WHAT IF

what if there was no lie. nothing wrong, nothing right.
what if there was no time? and no reason or rhyme?
what if you should decide
that you don't want me there by your side.
that you don't want me there in your life.

what if I got it wrong? and no poem or song..
could put right what I got wrong, or make you feel I belong
what if you should decide
that you don't want me there by your side
that you don't want me there in your life.

oh, that's right let's take a breath, jump over the side.
ooh, that's right how can you know it if you don't even try?
ooh, that's right every step that you take
could be your biggest mistake
it could bend or it could break
but that's the risk that you take

what if you should decide that you don't want me there in your life.
that you don't want me there by your side.
oh, that's right let's take a breath jump over the side.
oh, that's right how can you know it when you don't even try?

oooh, that's right oooh, that's right
let's take a breath jump over the side ooh, that's right
you know that darkness always turns into light ooh, that's right..

SAY YOU WILL

every time i hear this song i always imagine that someday someone will sing this song for me. i don't care about the tone,

bad or good his voice, i just care how he sing it for me.. haha yes i'm a lonely dreamer girl.

when I was alone in the cafe or wherever, I always make my own story in my brain.

someone comes while smoking and carrying a cup of coffee and stared at my face, and we talked for a while,

and maybe we exchanged numbers. but it all just on television.

the truth is he just sat and smoked his cigarette and only the smoke that led to my chair.

"if i ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe...

....say you will"

train - marry me

liar

“I hate this feeling. Like I'm here, but I'm not. Like someone cares. But they don't.
Like I belong somewhere else, anywhere but here, and escape lies just past that snowy window,
cool and crisp as the February air.”
― Ellen Hopkins

leaving leaving leaving

Summer gone, now winter's on its way

I will miss the days we had

The days we had

I will miss the days we had

The days we had

Oh, I'll miss the days we had

Loving, leaving, it's too late for this now

HELLO, D!

huaaa rasanya lama tidak mempost di blog ini *brb ambil kemucing*

saya rindu masa-masa tengah malam menggambar, menulis apa saja,
meracau, mengabarkan tentang kill the liar merch selanjutnya atau hanya
sekedar memposting lirik atau video yg sedang saya gandrungi.

kemana saja saya? ada yg rindu dengan gambar atau racauan saya? *ngarep banget haha*

2 minggu lalu saya terkapar tak berdaya hingga
akhirnya harus di rawat inapdi Rumah Sakit. seminggu berasa seperti
zombie yang hanya bisa muntah tanpa bisa memasukan makanan. akhirnya diinfuslah saya.
ternyata saya terkena penyakit grastitis atau saya menyebutnya di sebut 'lambung rusak' hehe

tapi sekarang saya sudah sehat walaupun masih harus check up ke dokter.
makan 3x sehari dengan minum obat dahulu, dan setiap jam 10 malam sudah di 'usir' mama atau
papa untuk tidur. dan hidup saya berasa sangat terjadwal -..-

masa recovery ini saya habiskan dengan mengerjakan tugas kuliah yang terbengkalai
gara-gara sakit, dan sedang kejar-kejaran dengan deadline UAS. kampus saya
memang sangat rajin mendahului untuk masalah ujian. pfffttt!

oiya, bagaimana dengan kill the liar merch #5?
wait n see! akan segera meluncur di blog ini.
yang jelas ada yang ijo - ijo dan ada yang coklat - coklat.
save you money karena ini sangat eklusif! hihi.

say hello to kill the liar #5!

keep moving

I just wish you knew how much I miss you.
How much time is spent thinking about you.
How much time I spend my day just thinking things through,
to get you back.

ROTATION OF FEELING

my mixtape and booklet for BYDEWE EXHIBITION at Yogyakarta 4 - 8 Nov'11

"ROTATION OF FEELING"

like the earth

our life are also rotating.

joy, sadness, despair.

all will rotate

when we fell through and feeling loss, that is one

form of the rotation of our life.

yes, it is rotation.

we will not stuck on feeling like that.

we inevitably have to follow the next round

namely happiness, confidence, and sincerity

life is rotating

feeling is rotating

only people who have no life

were just quite in the round.

packaging

booklet

you can download my mixtape:
here

GALLOWEEN - I'm more afraid

Im more afraid to losing you than walking alone at night

saat malam datang kebanyakan semua takut jika berada sendirian di suatu tempat.
merasa sesuatu yang buruk akan terjadi.
tapi sesungguhnya yang paling menakutkan adalah
kehilangan dia saat kita merasa sangat memerlukannya.
kehilangan dia saat kita yakin semua akan membaik.
dan satu satunya cara agar dia tidak hilang adalah
tetap merasakan kulitnya ketika kita tertidur. goodnite dear.

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GALLOWEEN
a collective (galau) art project
31 October 2011

berawal dari satu kegalauan yang kemudian saling menyambung dan berantai bagai racun yang estafet. .
with love,
SINDIKAT PEMUDA PEMUDI GALAU HARAPAN BANGSA

more photo:
here

lelah

kehidupan perkuliahan semeter 3 ini semakin membuat saya ada di dalam kata 'aduh!'
terbanyak yang harus di lakukan, terlebih lagi kekurangan saya dalam mengerjakan
tugas yang seharusnya berkelompok. ntah kenapa saya sulit jika harus mengerjakan
suatu tugas yang diberikan secara berkelompok.
kebanyakan berakhir dengan saya mengerjakan sebagian besar di part itu.

belum lagi harus memilih mayor di psikologi. apa yang harus saya milih? industri?
klinis? sosial? hah! memilih masuk psikologi saja sudah merupakan pilihan sulit.
masak iya saya harus memilih lagi? rasanya itu seperti ini 'ga sengaja masuk
jurang yang gelap, pas nyampe dasar ternyata itu bukan dasarnya, namun
hanya batu pijakan sementara saya, lalu saya terperosok masuk kedalam
dasar jurang yang sebenarnya' panjang ya? iya kaya rambut saya.

kehidupan saya dengan sisi berbeda yaitu menggambar juga sedang
'aduh' senjata saya yang selama ini menemani saya, sebut saja pentablet
rusak begitu saja setelah selesai menggarap artwork untuk mixtape yang akan di
pamerkan di jogja november ini. perasaan kalangkabut dan down seketika
semoga ada rejeki berlebih sehingga bisa membeli senjata baru

dan sebelumnya, maaf. saya 'ngersulo' atau mengeluh di sini. haha
sekali sekali boleh lah ya. semoga saat saya menekan 'publish entri'
yang punya bloggertiba tiba membaca dan membelikan saya wacom atau
yang sederhana saya, genius.
tapi tidak mungkin, emang dia bisa bahasa indonesia? ya semoga dia tau
kalo ada faslitas bernama google translate.
sekian.

OSTINATO

submission for tempertantrum exhibition
"Melafalkan Autisme, Memamerkan Frustrasi"
MLG - SBY

ostinato (/ˌɒstɪˈnɑːtəʊ/)
a continually repeated musical phrase or rhythm || stubbornly refusing to change one's opinion

more photo & info:
here

blogger day!

song for today

if we are only friends why do you kiss me like you do?
if we are only friends why do you hold me all night through?
do the words "i love you" never come to your mind
don't you know i love you? or is love really blind?

and every time we dance when there is starlight up above
i wonder if by chance you will discover this is love
could we be as happy as we both seem to be?
could we be so happy for the whole world to see if we are only friends?

all evening in your arms you hold me 'til suddenly it's time to part
i wonder why you always hold me so close to your heart

if we are only friends
why don't you dance with someone new and when the party ends
why do i always leave with you there's a happy ending
but on you that depends and until you tell me
i can only say
we're just very good friends
we are only good friends
we're still very good friends.

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lagu dari francoise hardy - only friend atau dalam bahasa prancisnya ton meilleur ami
iseng menjelajah di youtube kemarin malam
dan taaaraaa ini lagu ternyata tahun 1964. masih banyak lagu lama yang sungguh
ngena di hati dan kuping, lirik simpel tapi berkesan
oiya, coba cek 'i want you to want me' nya cheap trick
"i want you to want me, i need you to need me, i'd love you to love me and i'm begging you to beg me"

great man is a horse

i saw a figure of horse on him.
he is an emotional person (after my mom) i have ever known.
when his mood was bad, i can not say anything because i was afraid if he became more badmood -.-
he is 22 yo today, and surely one day i believe you will be a successful man and yes, deeply loved by a girl.
happy birthday, yus :)
nya o nya o

50:50

artwork for 50:50
jazzy high school band from Malang.

then next day

i find it silly that, one day, passion will color my cheeks and redden my lips so violently that the rest of my skin pales in comparison and then next day i'm fragile, blue, and lifeless with the inability to even lift my wrist or tell you not to go. human emotion never surprises me in how fleeting it remains to be.

photo taken from here

ugh!

...you...

ps: i'm kinda busy right now
my day just full of task for my lecture.
i connect my modem and open google just for
searching some journal and an expiriment
ugh. tired!

[should never] give up

you (and yes, of course me) should never give up what you love.

but you feel useless and can not do anything

to change it, what will you do then?

i am a person who easily discouraged, easy to give up on reality,

follow the flow that whoever set it up in such a way.

i breathe, trying to follow the flow that already exists.

i saw, trying to understand the meaning of the story

i smiled, trying to cheer my own feelings.

i think, trying to organize my thoughts until i realized

i'm foolish.

f for fortunately

i dislike risk, but i always run at it.

i felt better on my nerd skin, and wasted too much time

thinking it was better to be cool. fortunately, i was the only one who really thought

i was cool at the time. good thing.

FRIDAY i'm tired

semester 3 telah datang! yay! kuliah yang...bener sih cuma 3 hari, tapi langsung bikin seharian cuma duduk sambil melototin dosen. full seharian kuliah doang. belum lagi tugas yang antri minta dikerjain dan dikumpulin.
harus nyolong nyolong waktu buat ngegambar dan nyelesein beberapa kerjaan. anyway, sekarang uda punya hobi baru, yaitu BACA BUKU. benernya aku orang yg males banget baca buku, apalagi novel novel teenlit, baru kemarin ini ngeh kalo benernya aku juga suka baca, cuma belum nemu jenis buku yang bikin betah buat dibaca. dan akhirnya aku telah menemukan jenis buku apa, yaitu..............novel sastra yang ga banyak percakapannya :')

*harusnya sih foto waktu baca novel yak :))

KILL THE LIAR #4 Purple, The Triangle

yeyy! KILL THE LIAR #4 is out now!
sling bag with triangle native pattern.
it's so edgy and so eye-catching!

material: soft canvas - embroidery - zipper
size: 37 x 35

price: 80.000.-

SUPER LIMITED! ONLY 5 ITEM!

message me: 081945542209
or mention me @nicepupud

GRAB IT FAST!

Happy Ied Mubarak

karena sibuk dengan acara silahturahmi keluar kota, pergi pagi pulang malam
besoknya pergi lagi dan begitu selama 4 harian, dan baru sempet buka blog malem ini.
dengan berlapang dada dan gembira saya ucapkan selamat hari raya idul fitri 1432H.
mohon maaf lahir batin ya :)

ps: KILL THE LIAR #4 will uploading soon
xoxo

year book 2011 for smanti malang

//back __________________//front

single and triangle

sound funny when you are known as single and triangle
but its no problem for me
because, yes it's me !
:)

cukup.

"hati kamu mungkin memilihku, seperti juga hatiku selalu memilihmu.

Tapi hati bisa bertumbuh dan bertahan dengan pilihan lain.

Kadang, begitu saja sudah cukup. Sekarang aku pun merasa cukup."

- Dee (Perahu Kertas)

ME ft Flow Is King

this is my first collaboration with great artist, Samuel Sinaga a.k.a Flow Is King

i know him from his deviantart, then i follow his twitter account.

suddenly, he ask to check my email, and gotcha!

it's pretty difficult, because i should combine

FIK's typography with my pop art drawing

andd the result issss...............this is it :D

hope you like it

ps: pen tablet - photoshop - lil bit Ai

9.20.today

i'm 20, today.

have you ever feel missing something that you never have before?

happy birthday, pupud.

anyway, thank you for all best wishes for me.

thank you for sticky-stingky-wet things in the afternoon :D

and thank you for make me realize who i am :)

ps: they give me a cake with words nicepupud - 20 - single. lol

and you can see it in photo. and yes,

the candle '02' lol

xoxo

KILL THE LIAR #3 ada di BATAVIA

masih ingat lelaki berkacamata ini? mas gading dari efara93fm yang tempo hari
sempet mewawancarai kill the liar merch.
seminggu kemarin dia berkeliling jakarta dan dengan hebohnya
dia mempromosikan dan foto ala model lookbook memakai kill the liar #3.
big thankyou buat mas gading yg uda mau procol *promosi colongan*
buat kill the liar :D

anyway, selamat menjalankan ibadah puasa ya buat yg muslim.
semoga amal dan ibadah di bulan ramadhan ini membawa berkah.
amin.
xoxo

house of card

"I don't wanna be your friend
I just wanna be your lover
No matter how it ends
No matter how it starts"

radiohead

MY FAV PART ON RADIOHEAD

MY FAV PART ON RADIOHEAD

lirik lirik dari radiohead memang sangat mengagumkan. semua memiliki arti tersendiri.
tapi, ada beberapa part dari lagu there there , creep, dan all i need yg menjadi faforit saya.
jika mendengarkan ketiga lagu tersebut rasanya seperti ada pada ruang
kosong dan hanya ada saya seorang diri, jauh dari segala keramaian dan jauh
dari semua benda benda yg ada. kosong. disana hanya menikmati bait demi
bait yang semakin merasuk di otak.

Tribute to Radiohead, Wajah Cafe - Yogyakarta
28 July 2011
sayang sekali saya tidaka bisa hadir dimalam itu.

more foto: desta's album

KAMENGSKI "ENJOY YOUR YOUTH!" - ONLINE EXHIBITION

menampilkan karya2 seniman muda berbakat indonesia yang nan aduhai mempesona dan menggairahkan baik luar dan dalam.

untuk melihat karya-karya yang masuk di dalam acara pameran online ini, bisa mengunjungi alamat situs http://www.kamengski.net/

KAMENGSKI - ENJOY YOUR YOUTH! - ONLINE EXHIBITION 2011 at http://www.kamengski.net/

PARTICIPANT
Aditya Fachrizal Hafiz "GOOODIT"
Agus Susanto
Alghorie
Angga Cipta
Ari Rusyadi
ASHTWO
Ayu Wijaja
Bagus "Bagong" Priyo
Billy Gigs
Chyntia Puspitasari
Creamy Creppy "Onny Ranantalice"
Cut Desy & Iman Fattah
Dhemas Atmojo
Dodi Iswahyudi
Hirzi Hizriyan
Isrol Triono "Medialegal"
Lykerex
Nof Artherapy & Mochho Freak
Oktriani Marcelina
Opikobra
Paul Agusta
Rakhmad Dwi Septian "Kuro"
RHARHARHA
Roy Bayu Putera "Coloroyd"
Rukmunal Hakim
Syaiful Ardianto "JAHIPUL"
Syams Riadio
Nona Sarah Dwita Utami
Mas Ube Ganteng Banget
Yahyakan Natadias

MUSIC BY
Anus Apatis
Donna Weigel
DJ Xing Xing
Jesse Jeremy
Johnny And The Riot

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ENJOY YOUR YOUTH! © KAMENGSKI 2008-2011

time

"...and the hardest part
was letting go, not taking part
was the hardest part

and the strangest thing
was waiting for that bell to ring
it was the strangest start.."

//coldplay

PULANG

artwork for My Beautiful Life's song, Pulang.

VC for the day

maybe it's a PMS. i feel mellowdramatic haha

but i'm not sure about that. i love this song. the lyric is so true.

sometimes we like in love each other, but the truth is we are not together in comitment.

and it so hard to face it for a woman, all woman i thought.

do you think i'm in love?

ps: thank you for the 6 luckiest person

that bought KILL THE LIAR #3

all bags sold out only in 3 hour :)

you run out? don't worry. wit for August!

xoxo

KILL THE LIAR on denim with floral pattern

i don't need anything to get high. i'm high on life // Melissa de la Cruz

tote bag with denim material and embroidery
you can use this bag alternating with floral pattern inside

we product it in super limited quantity
only 6 item.
2 truth, 2 life, 2 high
and all of them is handmade.

do you want it?
call me now!
085755156005
or mention me at twitter
@nicepupud

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No. They are not.

they are like jack and sally. they are like mickey and minnie, and maybe like you and your girlfriend/boyfriend. they spent a whole day together. they talked and laughed like
they never ran out of topics to talk about.
they laughed
laugh,
laugh,
laugh,
laugh.

she enjoyed every little things about him; his joke, his random talk, his voice, his eyes, his smell, his ex's stories, his motor-cycle
he admired every little things about her; her joke, her random talk, her ideas, her wishing, her compliment, her voice, her hair.

are they in love each other? yes, they are.
are they a couple? no, they are not.

KILL THE LIAR #3

ps: it is super limited.
more than 4 pieces, but less than 10
currious? me too!

it goes on

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." // Robert Frost

pict source: here

MENJELAJAHI ISTANA SANG MAESTRO

tanggal 16 Juni kemarin, saya mendatangi kota Jogja. Ya, hampir tiap tahun saya
ke kota tersebut hanya untuk menghembus udara pagi dan sarapan gudeg haha.
akhirnya hari itu saya bisa mengunjungi museum affandi.
cukup dengan Rp 20.000,- saya bisa mengetahui semua tentang
sang maestro, mendapat souvenir, 1 botol softdrink, dan guide yang ramah :)

saya juga baru tau kalau ternyata sang maestro yang asal muasalnya
melukis dengan tema surealis, berpindah ke ekspresionis hanya
gara-gara ia tidak sabar dalam mengerjakan lukisannya akibat kuasnya yang
patah saat itu. ia langsung melukis dengan tube diatas kanvas.

selain lukisan lukisannya, saya juga kagum dengan arsitektur gedungnya yg unik.
semua gedung berbentuk daun pisang. sayang sekali pengunjung
di larang memoto di dalam gallery tersebut. arsiteknya sendiri ialah
bapak Affandi sendiri.

ia menggunakan model daun pisang karena keluarganya
dahulu yg terkena cacar, dimana orang tuanya meletakan daun pisang di bagian
yang terkena cacar agar dingin. hal itulah yg membuat Bapak affandi menerapkan
bentuk daun pisang pada galerinya. galerinya sendiri pernah diberi penghargaan
sebagai galeri dengan arsitektur terbaik, namun beliau menolak penghargaan itu dengan alasan
"saya ini pelukis, bukan arsitek"
ntah saya mendadak terenyuh saat si guide menceritakan hal ini :)

di atas ini adalah spot yg paling saya suka karena terdapat sebuah quote
dari sang maestro "banyak bekerja supaya panjang umur" .
benar benar gallery yang sangat menginspirasi saya.

ps: anyway, setelah dari jogja saya 2 hari di malang dan langsung
menjelajah ke lombok dan postingan ini saya tulis dilombok.
dan saya sangat rindu malang beserta isinya
apalagi kamar tidur saya dimana saya biasanya menggambar.
have a nice day people!